If God could stand before me
and answer to the deepest thought
Would he tell me that he loves me
in this pitiable state
If a mother could not love me
or a father hate my guts
Why on earth did God allow it
making me this dreadful curse
Never could a saviour save,
and draw the curse from my black soul
How could goodness ever step so low
when seeing me this way
There is no way back from the edge
of the widening chasm deep
Of blackness dark and sinister
that will swallow my life’s breath
Anger is my bread and fear my drink
my cup full to the brim
Is it daylight that I see approach
or simply clouds of sin.
If ever there a tortured soul,
I am the living proof
That evil reigns supreme on earth
and I am just but dust.